News Update

im planning to launch this blog of mine as a place to start my lil business, i be designing clothes for people who is into games and stuff and im trying to find place to print shirts and to buy bundle of shirts too...so it might take a while before i actually update more...but for now jus addin a lil spice; hope its a success, do support ~cus im planning to expand it prob at game shops too~

2.32am cant sleep....

fell asleep and woke up now i cant sleep
well for the moment i guess

its jus i thought after makin some changes in my life i wud nvr feel the feelin again
yes i am free no doubt im myself again i have my life back i feel great
maybe its my course dats bothering me and some other stuff...

i jus hate being treated like a kid when im alredy grown up
i know my responsibility i know where i shud head after im done here
do they have to mind every aspect of my life?
cant i once do wat i want....

and yeh a minute ago i jus had the same feelin hittin back at me again
the feelin i had for 2 year plus....
the feelin no guys will admit its true
all they say im thinkin too much
the feelin of someone is goin to strike the card of betrayal on me
i jus duno when who and how......
it jus feel like a pierce on my wound....its jus not a gud feelin dat i wanna throw it away for so long when i thought it has been gone but its back...
why?

so unexplainable why i feel all dis
am i really normal? paranoid?

Updates to my long lost blog before i go and sleep

its april o9.... how amazing... i thought i dont have to drop by to my emotional blog nemore looks like i was wrong.

well things have changed alot for the past 2 years, and i finally found myself!!
i used to be so lost and i wasnt happy at all and emotion jus stir up and down makin me so sufferin...

now its my second last sem... pretty tough time but i know i can do it... im plannin not to continue my ID for degree cus its not wat i wanted after all... i wanna go for game designin which i found a new campus in sydney and im tryin to find as much info as i can for all of dis...

besides dat i wanted to change my car... i know its not right to dump ur first car...i love my kelly lots of memories... but i had to cus i found sumthin i love so much and i didnt dreamt i will have it as mine... a nissan cefiro a31 with rb25 engine and its fully mod and only cost 38k...yeh cheaper then a new kelisa althou its second hand but its worth to own it.... goshhhh i jus cant wait for it!!!

not only dat im goin to cut my hair dis weekend; need some fresh look cus my lenses are gonna arrive end of dis week woohoooo finallly after 2 months lol hahaha

and yeah dis month i feel so happy im relief im free i can do wat i want im myself again i dun have to worry i dun have to feel sumthin bad is gonna happen, no sensitive feelin no jealousy no nuthin.... its like me and my life so peaceful....

its not easy to move on... i needed time so i wont make mistakes in future... but some ppl jus can nvr change....they nvr realise it and they nvr will... they will always be them and i will always be me... no matter how many million times u explain they wont get u at all...or maybe they jus refuse...i duno... i guess some ppl jus werent meant to be together.... they might think ur the bad ones but actually they are the ones who caused the consequences....do u know the ratio of original and fake ppl ? 1:100 ...... only one of them are original....