2.32am cant sleep....

fell asleep and woke up now i cant sleep
well for the moment i guess

its jus i thought after makin some changes in my life i wud nvr feel the feelin again
yes i am free no doubt im myself again i have my life back i feel great
maybe its my course dats bothering me and some other stuff...

i jus hate being treated like a kid when im alredy grown up
i know my responsibility i know where i shud head after im done here
do they have to mind every aspect of my life?
cant i once do wat i want....

and yeh a minute ago i jus had the same feelin hittin back at me again
the feelin i had for 2 year plus....
the feelin no guys will admit its true
all they say im thinkin too much
the feelin of someone is goin to strike the card of betrayal on me
i jus duno when who and how......
it jus feel like a pierce on my wound....its jus not a gud feelin dat i wanna throw it away for so long when i thought it has been gone but its back...
why?

so unexplainable why i feel all dis
am i really normal? paranoid?