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im planning to launch this blog of mine as a place to start my lil business, i be designing clothes for people who is into games and stuff and im trying to find place to print shirts and to buy bundle of shirts too...so it might take a while before i actually update more...but for now jus addin a lil spice; hope its a success, do support ~cus im planning to expand it prob at game shops too~

2.32am cant sleep....

fell asleep and woke up now i cant sleep
well for the moment i guess

its jus i thought after makin some changes in my life i wud nvr feel the feelin again
yes i am free no doubt im myself again i have my life back i feel great
maybe its my course dats bothering me and some other stuff...

i jus hate being treated like a kid when im alredy grown up
i know my responsibility i know where i shud head after im done here
do they have to mind every aspect of my life?
cant i once do wat i want....

and yeh a minute ago i jus had the same feelin hittin back at me again
the feelin i had for 2 year plus....
the feelin no guys will admit its true
all they say im thinkin too much
the feelin of someone is goin to strike the card of betrayal on me
i jus duno when who and how......
it jus feel like a pierce on my wound....its jus not a gud feelin dat i wanna throw it away for so long when i thought it has been gone but its back...
why?

so unexplainable why i feel all dis
am i really normal? paranoid?

Updates to my long lost blog before i go and sleep

its april o9.... how amazing... i thought i dont have to drop by to my emotional blog nemore looks like i was wrong.

well things have changed alot for the past 2 years, and i finally found myself!!
i used to be so lost and i wasnt happy at all and emotion jus stir up and down makin me so sufferin...

now its my second last sem... pretty tough time but i know i can do it... im plannin not to continue my ID for degree cus its not wat i wanted after all... i wanna go for game designin which i found a new campus in sydney and im tryin to find as much info as i can for all of dis...

besides dat i wanted to change my car... i know its not right to dump ur first car...i love my kelly lots of memories... but i had to cus i found sumthin i love so much and i didnt dreamt i will have it as mine... a nissan cefiro a31 with rb25 engine and its fully mod and only cost 38k...yeh cheaper then a new kelisa althou its second hand but its worth to own it.... goshhhh i jus cant wait for it!!!

not only dat im goin to cut my hair dis weekend; need some fresh look cus my lenses are gonna arrive end of dis week woohoooo finallly after 2 months lol hahaha

and yeah dis month i feel so happy im relief im free i can do wat i want im myself again i dun have to worry i dun have to feel sumthin bad is gonna happen, no sensitive feelin no jealousy no nuthin.... its like me and my life so peaceful....

its not easy to move on... i needed time so i wont make mistakes in future... but some ppl jus can nvr change....they nvr realise it and they nvr will... they will always be them and i will always be me... no matter how many million times u explain they wont get u at all...or maybe they jus refuse...i duno... i guess some ppl jus werent meant to be together.... they might think ur the bad ones but actually they are the ones who caused the consequences....do u know the ratio of original and fake ppl ? 1:100 ...... only one of them are original....

Story Time

Set in an island, hot but relaxing atmosphere. Theres this lil couple which had been together for only few months. They are almost together everytime. But the girl has to work to earn money and the boy had to study in order to get good job.

While the girl is away, the lil boy did something that the girl couldnt figure out if it is right or wrong or normal. They both always quarrel but yet they still try to settle it. The girl always had instinct dat the boy is doin somethin behind her back or doin things dat he wasnt suppose to do.
The boy never had confidence and the girl always supports him help him and try her best to make him complete cus she was in love with him. But the boy wanted more then her attention. he wanted others atttention so the boy always complain how awful he is.

So one day a stranger from other part of the state came and noticed the lil boy for a long time. He didnt know yet he was too busy with something else while the girl is working and havin hard time. So the stranger approach him one evening and said she has been watchin him for a long time and find him cute. he was so excited and it feels like marijuana in his head, so they both end up talkin and talkin. His girl thinks its fishy and tried to hint him probably he has the heart to tell her the truth but he didnt. So the girl couldnt do anythin and waited for days and days to see if theres anythin happen.

The stranger was so evil that she keep on praising the lil boy. Cus its been awhile no girls has said and praise him like dat besides his girl. And so the lil boy decided to ask the stranger girl her address so he could keep in touch more and the stranger gaved.. So wat shall his girl do? Shall she keep it to herself ? wait for him to confess ? make him confess? all she jus let her lil boy keep in touch with dat stranger girl ?

The Tiny World in My Tiny Heart

its 12.27am jus got home for like 15min?
tomoro is workin day again sighh

today we went to maxim for ice cream met adeline shes workin there and we had a great chat and her bday is on the 23rd... well del be goin to his family's wedding in kl and im gonna take care of kimi so prob i be seein adeline if she didnt go kl to celebrate her bday.

after dat we went home watch a dvd we bought yesterday fell asleep half way the show haha and we went into the room. del played game and i fell asleep with kimi.. then he woke me up hhaha then we went to buy kimi's wet food, went to khaleel and eat talk bout our future planning...

then we went home watch tv and etc... sat a while and i went home and here i am ..

well he hasnt answered my lil letter but its ok i be waitin

owh the sweetest thing i missed so much from him was his cooking
he cooked for me today for lunch... it was beautiful im touched

Ojos de la Panda

Rain and haze owh my makes my day
yup its 1.21am here in penang... on my couch with my tv on
feelin abit purple tonite...

owh today was so unlucky! cus of games and fake movies i end up with a FINE!!
damn it i 2 FINE this month...fudge...sighh
but i got my titan quest lol...and a few damn funny shows which im not regret of buyin them
we had KFC for lunch and yeh we spend our time watchin movie playin game good old time which i missed so much...del was playin soul calibur and after dat we moved to Lego indiana jones xbox 360... we played tilll we need to reuse old batteries again and again in order to continue the quest it was funny and yeh it made my day...we stopped and end up watchin another movie before i got home

well dats about it for today

song of the day- aerosmith - i dont wanna miss a thing
the cranberries- linger

frailecillo del mollete

Hola everybody!!
Its my 4th or 5th blog i think lol..
its 2.02am and i was jus about to write bout wat i do today

Well im currently doin my pointless practical training for 4 darn months and so happens today i get to finish work early so i went to see Adel and we went to print his stuff and to college. After that we went to watch movie WALL-E !
owh my it was the most meaninful animation ever made i cried in the cinema. After watchin it i hope u people out there start appreciating ur life, urself, people around u, the earth, and ur love ones...most importantly learn to be patient and never give up;understand ur love ones.. dont let silly things or people or stupid excuses blind u and stop u from loving ur love ones...notice what they've done for u.. watch the movie u'll know wat i mean

then in the cinema we saw our fren eddy and we went to adel's house watch some movie in astro, play games and i watched a few sad shows like Haven, Tears of the sun and 28 weeks later. this few movies has meaningful message dat im so touched with it... i cried while watchin tears of the sun... cruel cruel world out there..different feeling then while playin those strategy games...cus its reality...

then chit chat with adel it was our anniversary (16th of every month) cus 16 is the time i fell for him.. i wished him and we continue our conversation then he went off to sleep such a sweet muffin.. then we were talkin bout Spore, Left 4 dead , age of booty and etc... i cant wait for sims apartment life, the few games listed, and im not sure any game dat im still hunting for yet... adel was waitin for mercenaries, spore,left 4 dead haha ~

then dats bout it haha owh yeh im tryin to build up me stamina so im gonna do abit of exercise and head to sleep.. more games more books more more more damn...haha im talkin crap already... alrite then nitey nite bloggy... ZzzZZzz